TechyGeekGirlKnits

aka: Shannon's Shananigan's (Since there seems to be less & less knitting and more Shananigan-ing going on as of late and well, let's face it, she's just going to always be a techygeekgirl!!)

Saturday, September 15, 2007

CNTL-ALT-DEL

RESET.

I've been feeling way out of sorts lately with work, home, relationships, family and life in general. I do have to say that I've gotten to the point where I start to realize that before it totally spirals out of control. Usually I am able to stop it or at least change course so the big trainwreck doesn't hit!

This is what I've been doing since about July of this year. I have really been reflecting on my life - where I am, where I'm going, what the hell I want to be doing, going, etc. So I've decided to RESET it all.

No, wait, don't freak out - I haven't decided to move to some remote island in the South Pacific (though Winter is coming...). I have really tried to make sure that I know what's going on and making stuff for changes as needed.

The biggest thing is that I decided my relationship with T was going nowhere, slowly. We had gotten to the point where we were dating just like a year ago and he had no desire to move on past that. I was still the "weekend girlfriend", though I did have one night a week too, if I was lucky! He always says that he wants a relationship, but his actions say such the opposite. I was tired of dealing with it and feeling like I was really unimportant in his world, so I ended it. I feel better and honestly, I don't miss it a lot. (I miss having someone to do stuff with, but not really him as much...) I'm doing good and feeling really OK with it.

I also started getting excited about being home more and seeing my neighbors more. They are all so cool and I have missed seeing them. I'm looking forward to hanging out with them more in the future.

Oh, and I'm still knitting...I promise. I started a scarf a la Crazy Aunt Purl's Magic Scarf or giant seed stitch. I am doing it in Blizzard, an Alpaca mix and its' so fuzzy and soft - just love it! And I almost finished the red baby sweater - it needs to get in the mail before it starts getting cold in NC!

As for work, I'm finally am "getting it". It's been a transition and it's been tough and a little bit of a blow to the ego, but I'm hanging in. I am hearing from colleagues that it's tough and everyone goes through it, but if you are willing to put in the work, you make it through. I've never really backed down from a challenge, so I'm game. Good thing, as I really dont' want to job search right now!

And the blogging.... I'd love to promise that I'll blog every day, but that's not realistic. I did get the Internet back at home, so I can work more there. That will help get me back into blogging, I hope. So, no promises, but check back often...

2 Comments:

At 8:05 AM, Blogger Penny Karma said...

That was an absolutely brilliant title.

 
At 5:36 AM, Anonymous Anna said...

welcome home..now you have time for spinning (heheheh)

 

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